the other night, anxiety spent its time ransacking my mind & seizing any peace i had until my tears finally showed themselves. so i sat in the corner of my bed while she listened & loved me well & i thanked her & told her i just needed the space to break down in the hopes that it would help me break free.
in this season, there’s big questions about future endeavors that demand ready answers & i’m not ready. & God’s really teaching me that contrary to our culture of instant gratification, most things happen really slowly. like growth & dreams & success & friendship & holiness & abundance.
my faith that demands a fast pace needs to learn patience. i really really need to learn patience. or else i’ll fail to see how far He’s brought me, how faithful He’s kept me & how fearlessly He keeps moving me forward. i've learned His goodness is fierce in its intense devotion to each & every one of us. & in light of that truth, i want to find the beauty in the process & grace in the growth, even when it looks backwards.
so this is how i’ll try. i learned a simple phrase a few weeks ago that begged me for a new perspective. it was this: wonder comprehends.
i think God is pleased when we live curiously: seeking wonder, seeking to understand & seeking for grace embodied.
because as i pulled out of the parking lot of the grocery store, i saw a little girl peeking over the backseat while her brother loaded the bags in the trunk. i watched her smile stall him in a gracious moment.
& i laughed when he abruptly broke the silence because of awe & pointed out the window at the cotton candy sky.
& i held a two-year-old's tiny hand as he trudged up the stairs, his small legs & ambitious heart affirming the grace all around.
& i heard my neighbor walk in the house & ask for the instructions for the dogs because this is how he's serving us this week & His abundant grace really is all around us if we would just pay attention.
curiosity breeds joy because wonder comprehends. wonder understands grace.
one day at a time, we will breathe in His grace & we will take heart in slow growth & we will rejoice at every small triumph because the most brilliant glory is found in the most unlikely — like a baby born in the little town of bethlehem that came to bring us peace. the peace that’s been forever bought for those of us who with one voice declare: it is finished.
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.